Do you get it?


Me neither...
I had some strange dreams, actually nightmares, that haunted me in my sleep..
I woke up all sweaty and sometimes even crying..
One time I biten through my lower lip and had my shirt all bloody...
Those dreams were kinda scarry, biomechanical and so real that I could almost touch
them..

The only time I can sleep well is when Tonja is by me and I hug her the whole
night through..

I don`t know what`s wrong with me..
But as I see, those nightmares are an inspiration to me and I focus
myself more and more into drawing again..
I draw pretty sketchy, but thankfully (to dunno who) it is getting
better pretty rapidly..

Those sketches and drawings are like an exorcism of my soul, my nightmares, dreams, fetishes and even my worst fears..

Obscurities over obscurities I know..
I have to go to sleep, otherwise I will be again sleepwalking tomorrow in
the university of arts...

And btw.: I`m still kinda sad that I did not apply for art school..
Damn me..

Anyway I`m happy where I am, I found a lovely girlfriend, new hope in life and
met quite a few nice people..


Hear ya..

13thNemesis

P.S.: A note on me listening to Korn.
I don`t like them really, but sometimes I just find their music pleasing..